Back in the States

How quickly things have disappeared. The touch of the wind, the sound of the waves, th excitement, the anticipation. The connections, the laughter and the awe...it has all been replaced with this emptiness...in all the ten countries I visited this summer, I have never felt this out of place. I was one of the first to walk off the gangway (all a's-yes!) and there waiting for me with flowers stood my mother, and together we rode off towards the life I had previously known...seeing art exhibits (Hirschorn) and art films (man on wire)...seeing events (Lion King at the Kennedy Center)...reading the paper and stopping at starbucks....and yet, it all felt so odd...after living on a ship for near 70 days, the land seemed alien. Not any land, but American soil. It didn't help that the boyfriend figure decided to break it off indefinitely because of my now past and future travels abroad. After a summer of waiting to see him, eh-whatever, it's not worth it to discuss. I mention it only to support the fact that my short time back has not been marked by feelings of relief but rather anxiety. Now, more than ever, I am ready to go to India. I spent $70 yesterday at the bookstore ...big surprise there. I've decided to cut my visit here in DC short and so I've bought a flight back to CT where I'll stay until I head to India. INDIA! Ah...it will save me.

I'm going to try to upload some videos from this summer. So stay tuned!